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You question me, I don’t mind,
You scold me, I don’t mind,
You advice me, I don’t mind,
As I thought you are mine.
But please, understand me for while.
I will tell everything but after sometime.
Right now, time is what I need for myself,
Right now, support is what I need for myself.
How should I explain the pain I go through?
How should I explain the deathly feeling I go through?
The inner self fights hard,
Do you know how much blood I lost?
I’m tired, I cannot explain through words,
But don’t mistake it as my confusion on the behalf of myself.
You don’t know anything,
I’m trying my best to settle everything.
Cries, tears, can anyone see?
No.
Pain, sufferings, can anyone see?
No.
For my failure, don’t think that I don’t consider myself guilty.
I do say that I’m guilty.
Every minute, every second, I know it’s my less hard work,
And that’s why I faced the failure.

But I have lost all my energy,
I cannot concentrate on anything.
These talks might seem like mere dialogues,
As you never see the actions that you can think off,
But please forgive me for these delays,
Don’t crucify me for these delays.
I know I’m taking it slow,
But what can I do when my foot is bleeding and I can’t move.
The hope in me has died,
The positivity has lost its shine,
I’m not able to see who I was,
I’m trying to find who I was.
May be I know, But just can’t catch the older myself,
As right now, I don’t have strength to uphold myself.
I know I’m the reason for the degradation,
But I guess mistakes are made by human himself,
Now when I want to put everything right,
They why analyse my past so abrasively.
If you think I’m excusing myself,
Then I won’t say anything.
I thought silence can convey anything,
May be I'm wrong, but right now it doesn't seem to say anything.

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