Life keeps running and till we die, we keep living different
moments of our lives. Among these varied moments, there is one side of these
moments where we try to take care of our close ones. We try to make them smile,
adjust with their phase of life irrespective of how our own life is running and
we just accept them the way they are. We think that they know about the stuff
running in our life, but somehow they neglect the efforts we put in to make
things seem perfect just for them. We keep our own problems, worries, and
tensions aside; we even try to mend the ways, which we want to do, so as to help
ourselves fight our own problems. We put their troubles above ours and do
things which they want to do. And slowly and steadily this becomes a habit.
They shirk the part where they too need to mend their ways
and do something just for us. And when this continues, we just keep losing out
on expectation and in the end we de-attach ourselves from everything so as to
not to get hurt more. But the story doesn’t ends here, our reputation is
defamed over the fact that we don’t care for them anymore. They say there was a
time when we used to be there for them, we used to make them smile which unfortunately
we don’t do anymore.They say our expectations are way too high.
Lately, having close ones seem bit ironical and satirical. And I
feel, it’s better not to live in an illusion. I don’t want to think someone as
one my close one if he/she just can’t understand my point of view and keep
playing the blame game and defame my reputation without caring for anything.
I know I can’t re color the beautiful moments which once
were my best moments. But I can reassure myself to stay away from pseudo world
of pseudo relationships with pseudo promises and pseudo affection.
Take care. I hope you all find your true close ones.
copyright aditi kochhar
